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Aug. 8th, 2007 08:15 amHey, you guys remember the Yourself! Fitness game I was doing? Well I dusted it off, because I remembered it had a cardio option, and I've been using it the past two days. I've started substituting some of her moves that bother my knee with bellydance shimmies or Leslie Sansone steps and I really enjoy it again. The good thing about Yourself! is that you can see the exercise changes coming, and it keeps your time for you. It even logs your progress, so I updated the weight and ability info there too. I'm one pound heavier now than I was when I stopped doing it last time, and if I remember right, that took me a long time! It's only been a week and a half with Spark, so that speaks with results. I think the fact that I'm doing cardio every day is a huge difference, not to mention keeping track of the food I eat.
I've always been an emotional and boredom eater, but I'm not into junk food or snacks, really. I would just overeat food, so cutting my portions and tracking them is really teaching me just how much I am supposed to be eating. I've started using my smaller dishes for my meals, so I don't try to fill them up. The only thing I use my big bowls for right now is salad. I'm realizing that as long as I can still eat normal food, that a diet isn't the horrible thing it once was in my mind. There's only so far I'm willing to go, and I think I'd rather keep up the exercise than eliminate all bad foods, but we'll see how it goes.
There may be some people who don't know this, but I live with a real fear of becoming immobile because of my weight, especially after my dad died in 2001. He was getting gastric bypass surgery and he got a blood clot and died before he came out of the hospital. He was 350 pounds or so, and I know he didn't want to be. He spent his whole life going back and forth with his weight, and trying every diet and exercise program, every self help new age babble, everything, but he ate because he was depressed, and no one could help him with that at the time. Anyway, that may have something to do with why I got into dancing, why I am such a stickler about not missing my classes, that sort of thing. I never want to be able to make an excuse as to why I can't keep active in some way. I'm overweight now, but I'm always working on it. I guess I always have been.
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I've always been an emotional and boredom eater, but I'm not into junk food or snacks, really. I would just overeat food, so cutting my portions and tracking them is really teaching me just how much I am supposed to be eating. I've started using my smaller dishes for my meals, so I don't try to fill them up. The only thing I use my big bowls for right now is salad. I'm realizing that as long as I can still eat normal food, that a diet isn't the horrible thing it once was in my mind. There's only so far I'm willing to go, and I think I'd rather keep up the exercise than eliminate all bad foods, but we'll see how it goes.
There may be some people who don't know this, but I live with a real fear of becoming immobile because of my weight, especially after my dad died in 2001. He was getting gastric bypass surgery and he got a blood clot and died before he came out of the hospital. He was 350 pounds or so, and I know he didn't want to be. He spent his whole life going back and forth with his weight, and trying every diet and exercise program, every self help new age babble, everything, but he ate because he was depressed, and no one could help him with that at the time. Anyway, that may have something to do with why I got into dancing, why I am such a stickler about not missing my classes, that sort of thing. I never want to be able to make an excuse as to why I can't keep active in some way. I'm overweight now, but I'm always working on it. I guess I always have been.
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