I'm fine!

I'm okay, you can stop sending me emails and asking if I'm alive, lol.

Things are just operating outside of the internet for me lately. That's a good thing. Work is very encompassing of my time, so much so that I haven't been able to feel creative in the evenings like I used to. This is not such a good thing, but I do enjoy my job. I have gotten another promotion of sorts, but nothing I can really talk about. I worry of course, because it is a retail business, if everything will remain as good as it is now. All around me, I hear of folks getting laid off, and yeah, I worry for Corey's job too. I am much more worried about his job than mine, though realistically, no one can depend on anything right now. Corey actually wants to get out of the field he is in and become a welder. I think this could be a good move for him, but I'm concerned that the job is not as good as his friend has led him to believe. I guess we will see.

Things between Corey and I are the same, we are best friends and can talk about anything with each other, but sexually things are still as one sided as ever. I don't really talk too much about this here, but to give you some perspective, for the last three or four years we have had sex maybe once every month or two. Yes, I could have it more often if I went in there and took it. In fact, the meager sex we are and have been having has been because I initiate it. He is never horny on his own. Yes, he is on meds for depression, and it has stolen his libido away. But at some point I have to think about my own mental health. My vibrators can only do so much!

So since Corey worked second shift up until February, I would spend my evenings online, surfing porn and whacking off just to stay sane. I have always been a very sexual person, and I honestly hope to always be. I cannot imagine being married to anyone else, but at the same time, I was at the end of my rope. Throw into the mix that my husband has fallen into a routine where he refuses to look after himself anymore. He is starting to make some changes now, but it is still not a good situation. He has changed meds again and is still adjusting. He seems happier but now he cannot have sex at all. When he changed shifts, we both had to adjust to the fact that neither of us had our cherished solo time in the house. I could whack off in front of him sure, but there's something nice about masturbating alone too. Plus, it might just be more cruelty than I can muster to make him watch when I know he can't get into it. At least not right now. Maybe later I will tie him up and make him watch me!

I started hanging out at the local bondage club again sometime in January. I needed to get out, to have a place to dress up for, friends to cuddle with and talk about my long repressed kinks. Corey has not been interested in that anymore either. I can relieve some of that pressure by playing with folks at the club. Delivering a good flogging can really make the stress disappear for me, and I love dressing up and having a place to go where I feel comfortable.

The last post I made about it was friends only, but I have actually taken a submissive under my wing, who turns out to be just a sweet guy and a friend to me, as well as a lover. Yes, we play together at the club and here, and Corey knows and likes him. We are not having intercourse, but we are definitely engaging in sexual play. He helps out around the house, has started digging a new plot for a garden here, and gives a wonderful pedicure! (Those of you that know me well also know that I have a foot thing. I wouldn't call it a fetish, but I really like my feet to be tended.) Anyway, things are good with him, and as good as they can be with my marriage too. Perfect? No. But everyone is being honest and open about how they feel, and that's the best we can do. I have lost weight and I feel wonderful. I realized that I was letting Corey's depression drag me down too, and I won't do that anymore.

I am not looking for advice. I know how most of you feel about this sort of thing. I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm fine and living life the best way I can. :-)

Important! Change In Sherlocks Gaming Days.

Moving to first Sundays, see below.

Turns out that April 12th is Easter, I will be at a convention, and I'm sure
other folks will have family things. We have decided to close on Easter so that
our employees will be able to have time with their families too. This caused us
to look at the other planned game days in relation to holidays and other events
booked at the store.

Game Days will now be on the First Sunday of every month. Yes, I know there is
another game day on first Sundays. We have thought about it and we have lots to
offer, and hope you feel the same way!

On Game Days we will be open early, at 10 am, and will have eggs, sausage, bacon
and homemade croissants available for breakfast. Although we have seating for
70, We suggest you arrive early to insure seat and table availabilty. For those
of you that smoke, there is a nice outdoor covered patio available for your
gaming pleasure. We will have giveaways every odd hour, and of course our
regular lunch and dinner menu and domestic and import beers.

Here are the upcoming game days at Sherlock's Cafe:

April 5th
May 3rd
June 7th
July 5th
(and so on.)

However, gamers are always welcome anytime the cafe is open! There is even a
table reserved for gaming now.

Regular Hours:
Tues.-Thurs. 10-6, Fri-Sat 10-9, Sunday 12-5, Monday-Closed.

Please patronize the cafe and tip the staff, that is the best thing you can do
to make game day continue. Also, please understand that children must be
supervised at all times, and cannot go running through the bookstore while you
game in the cafe. Other than that, game on!

You guys rock,
Jill

Sherlock's Books and Hobbies
200 Maddox-Simpson Pkwy
Lebanon, TN 37090
615-449-9807
www.sherlocksbooks.com

Any questions can be directed to hobbyshop@sherlocksbooks.com

These are the classes I'm teaching at PUF:

Tasseomancy ~ Learn the art of tea leaf reading and how it can be implemented for your next casual party or gathering. The real fun is letting several people read at the same time!

Tarentella ~ The dance of the ancient spider. Before the modern couples dance, the original Tarentella was an expression of frustration, love, depression and fear, among mostly female peasants in rural southern Italy. Today we can use it to transcend depression, fatigue, heartbreak and sexual tension. Wear white if possible. This is an adults only class, held at Jill's yurt.

Phallomancy ~ Yes, it's just what you think it is! If a field of divination is studied long enough, patterns form and through these patterns, conclusions can be drawn. At this point, my conclusions on the readings of phalli have been somewhere around 80 percent. Live models? Maybe! This is an adults only class, held at Jill's yurt.

Jill “Zebeebah” Fazio has had a love affair with dance for over 20 years. With praise, encouragement and steadfast direction tempered with humor, she has made dancers from naysayers and performers from shrinking violets. Her passion is infectious and she brings new perspective to all she touches.

Me and Rose at the club a few weeks ago.

Dread Pics.

I love this one, the light was shining through the blinds and made it look like I have a cool raccoon dreadie!



I went to an Oscar party a while back and put my hair up all pretty.

( Click here to see, I'm very happy with how it came out! )