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Feb. 15th, 2007 02:10 pmGorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous pictures from the fabulous Tribal Con show:
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Feb. 15th, 2007
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Feb. 15th, 2007 03:24 pmThis came up during lunch with a friend, and I though I might expand upon it a little bit. She mentioned that I seemed more laid back lately, and that I was due for a blow up.
I don't believe in resolutions, because I think they are too hard to keep when you call them that. I refused to call my quitting smoking back in '00 a resolution even though it started on the 1st of January that year, because that wasn't what it was to me. Resolutions fade by the spring, and I had no intention of allowing it to fade.
Same with what I did this year. My anger and inability to deal with things last year really weighed heavily on me. Everything had to be done just so, or I found myself getting really upset over it. I seethed when it did me no good, I stewed when people made me feel badly, I made people not want to be themselves around me. I would become angry and it would take days to get over. Some of this was hormones, and last year was a waterfall of them!
I decided to do my best to not be this way anymore, if for no other reason than my own health--of course I want my friends to be the beneficiaries of this as well, and the goal is to become a better friend to those I am close with. I hope to become a more accepting and non-judgemental person by working very hard to prevent the triggers that make my feathers poofy. I try to not put myself in potentially hazardous positions with people who I do not mesh well with. I try not to take it personally when others move through their lives away from me. I am open to new situations and refuse to cling to past mistakes.
I do not worry myself crazy over the events that I work on. Of course I still fuss, but I've sacrificed being a perfectionist for being happy. This means that I may not get accolades for pulling off a great gathering, but it also means I don't feel deflated when it's over.
I'm noticing that I am a bit lonely, but much calmer. I have every intention of getting over feeling lonely, I think it's just a by product of letting things go.
I don't believe in resolutions, because I think they are too hard to keep when you call them that. I refused to call my quitting smoking back in '00 a resolution even though it started on the 1st of January that year, because that wasn't what it was to me. Resolutions fade by the spring, and I had no intention of allowing it to fade.
Same with what I did this year. My anger and inability to deal with things last year really weighed heavily on me. Everything had to be done just so, or I found myself getting really upset over it. I seethed when it did me no good, I stewed when people made me feel badly, I made people not want to be themselves around me. I would become angry and it would take days to get over. Some of this was hormones, and last year was a waterfall of them!
I decided to do my best to not be this way anymore, if for no other reason than my own health--of course I want my friends to be the beneficiaries of this as well, and the goal is to become a better friend to those I am close with. I hope to become a more accepting and non-judgemental person by working very hard to prevent the triggers that make my feathers poofy. I try to not put myself in potentially hazardous positions with people who I do not mesh well with. I try not to take it personally when others move through their lives away from me. I am open to new situations and refuse to cling to past mistakes.
I do not worry myself crazy over the events that I work on. Of course I still fuss, but I've sacrificed being a perfectionist for being happy. This means that I may not get accolades for pulling off a great gathering, but it also means I don't feel deflated when it's over.
I'm noticing that I am a bit lonely, but much calmer. I have every intention of getting over feeling lonely, I think it's just a by product of letting things go.
Corey is planning to start up a Shadowrun game in the near future, maybe once or twice a month.
If you are interested, please let me know. Shadowrun is a roleplaying game set in the future, where Shadowrunners, mercenaries of sorts, run into all sorts of adventures. There are cyborgs, magicians, shamans, elves, dwarves and so on...
We haven't played in years, but Corey used to run a very good game then and has been looking over the new edition lately. Beginners welcome, let me know.
If you are interested, please let me know. Shadowrun is a roleplaying game set in the future, where Shadowrunners, mercenaries of sorts, run into all sorts of adventures. There are cyborgs, magicians, shamans, elves, dwarves and so on...
We haven't played in years, but Corey used to run a very good game then and has been looking over the new edition lately. Beginners welcome, let me know.